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I DID IT

I DID IT

OH YEAH YEAH YEAH

NO EATING HERE TONIGHT NO EATING HERE TONGIHT

NO NO NO EATING HERE TONIGHT

I GOT HER NUMBAAAA!!!!!

‘no problem! it’s just so pretty! like you.’

nah, backspace that.

‘no problem! it’s just so pretty!’

i saved someone from killing themselves last night. you don’t even know how great of a feeling that is.

this might be silly to say, but i think i’ve found my purpose. whether someone’s thinking about killing themselves, or they’re just having a hard time. i’m here to help people. i’m here to save people.

i’ve been abandoned plenty of times. people honestly don’t ‘need’ someone. you won’t need me, especially since you have all your other friends.

i won’t need anyone either.

i just

don’t even care anymore

Fan: Star Wars or The Lord of the Rings?
Niall: None of them.
You should have seen my face. I don't think I've ever looked so sad.

I still consider myself a part of the Fellowship from when I read LOTR for the first time. I just sort of put myself into the book with them. They were my best friends for a long time, sometimes they still are, even if they are characters in a book.

When Boromir died, I lost it. I just went into a deep depression (even though I was already in one which made it 50 times worse) and I didn’t talk to anyone for days, except for telling dad what I wanted to eat or talking to my friends or teacher at school. 

Now I’m watching Game of Thrones, a whole different story line, starring Sean Bean (Boromir in the LOTR movies) and he just got stabbed.

I’m  sobbing. I can’t lose my Boromir again.

…. 21

i guess i’ll just grip onto my laptop so i won’t cut myself to death

Something is still gonna happen, bro. I’m not giving up on this one.